Today I officially commence my journey as a stay at home mom (SAHM). It felt bittersweet when I indicated to my employer of my plans after my maternity leave came to an end. I did choke a little when delivering my message. After all, I had spent a good part of my (pre Bugs) life with them and had formed firm friendships with a handful.
If someone had asked me many moons ago, way before Bugs was even a reality, if I would ever consider doing what I did today, my answer would have been a resolute no. My career was important to me – in fact, the importance of having one had been ingrained in me since childhood. I was forbidden to even consider the ‘outrageous’ idea of staying at home to look after your own kids as it would be a waste of whatever education and work experience I had worked hard for.
Then Bugs entered into our lives. We were totally unprepared for what was to come, despite the 9 months head start that nature had given us. The sleepless nights, the crying (ours and Bugs), the countless nappy changes -it did make work seem like a breeze compared to this.
But then the fog started to clear up and we saw the silver lining that God had intended for us to find- that cheeky toothless little smile, the precious hugs, those big, brown innocent eyes, the endless babbling ( I can go on and on here) – oh what would we not give up to be a part of this everyday! I had grown very attached to our little one and she of me. She only had one childhood and I did not want to miss it for the world! That was when I knew that THAT forbidden decision had to be made.
The Dude and I celebrated the start of our new chapter with a simple cup of coffee. No frills. No bells and whistles. Only quiet reflection on the life that was and excitement at what lay in store for us all in the future.